Friday, January 18, 2013

If I Die...

Posted by Binibining Alindogan at 1:11 AM

Ang kamatayan, parang katapusan ng mundo...di natin alam kung kelan darating, di natin alam kung kelan tayo dadatnan ng malas. Di mo alam kung gigising ka pa ba kinabukasan, di mo alam kung makakauwi ka pa ba sa inyong bahay pagkagaling sa opisina...Di mo alam kung masasabi mo pa ba sa mga mahal mo sa buhay na mahal mo sila...So here I am, I will write a letter na pwede kong maiwan...

Dear Everyone,

Kumusta naman? Sa oras na binabasa mo ang liham na ito ay malayong-malayo na ako...Walang airline company or travel agency na mag-ooffer ng package or piso fair para makarating kayo dito...So I wrote this letter para masabi ko sa inyo ang laman ng aking puso...

To my two bestfriends, Joy-Anne and Cyril, Thanks a lot. Alam nyo na ang sagot nyo...kape at biskwit, I'll give you the role of organizers sa wake ko. You have to do it with all the trimmings and frills, you know. Hehe...Well, of course, after all that we've been through, all the laughter and tears, we already created a strong bond. We already know each other that well. Alam na natin kung ganu kaarte si Cyril, his moaning kapag gusto niya na matulog, ang katamaran niya sa pagkilos at ang laging pag-a-underdog niya kay Joy. You Joy, I am so happy that you already had the glimpse of stardom...ahaha...I believe in you, and I am so proud that your dream's starting to come true. Kayong dalawa ang isa sa pinaka-importanteng tao sa buhay ko, and we may not be bonded through blood, I am considering you as my grand mother and grand father...hahaha...and I am considering you as my siblings. I love you very much, and I thank you for always being there during the most important moments of my life. Thank you for accepting me as I am...for always listening...without prejudice...And please, kindly take care of my baby Dwayne, dalaw-dalawin nyo siya ang make sure na di siya inaapi or napapabayaan...ahaha...

Ty my brother, Marlon, who have been my bestfriend since birth hanggang grade six. I don't know what happened pero I can remember that we used to be very close, we used to share common interests and we are fond of almost the same things. Pero siguro ganun talaga ang buhay, there are always changes that in one way or another will affect relationships. For everything, thank you. If I'll be gone, please take good care of Mama and Papa for me...

To my Mama and Papa, my imperfect parents. Maraming akong bagay na gustong sabihin sa inyo. First, I would like to thank you for taking care of me from then till now. Thank you also for taking good care of my Dwayne, whenever I'm away. To my Papa, thank you for always making me hatid to Pedro Gil every 3am. To mama, thank you for making me sundo at Alabang. Sabi nila, kapag dumating na daw ang apo, naiichapwera na ang anak, because mas love na ang apo. However, with you, mas naramdaman ko ang love and care...I would also want to take this opportunity to say sorry...sorry for everything...for every tear and pain I've given you in the past. Sorry for all those promises I've broken. Sorry if there are times you might feel I failed you...I don't know, but I LOVE YOU is not enough...

To my husband, Ace Mark. Thank you...Thank you for teaching me how to love...ahaha, kanta lang...thank you for you made me feel beautiful. Thank you for the strength and courage. If ever mamamatay ako, isa lang ang hiling ko, please don't marry again...Hahaha...okay sige, you can marry again, pero after 20 years...I don't want to move on so easily. Gusto ko, you will mourn for me for a long period of time...I don't want a wicked stepmother for my son. Gusto ko dalawin mo lagi ang puntod ko, and you'll bring me roses. Pag di mo to tinupad, Mumultuhin kita...I'll haunt you, di kita patutulugin sa gabi...hehehe...take good care of my Dwayne, our Dwayne...please let him know how much I love you...and let him grow up as a responsible man...I love you, and I know that you know that...

To my son...my sunshine...ang kaganapan ng aking pagkababae...Believe me anak, before you came into this world, I feel like a dead girl walking. Para akong dahong dala dala ng malumanay na agos ng tubig sa sapa. I am numb...I feel useless...I feel nothing...but then, when you came...parang biglang lumiwanag yung mundo kong dating madilim...and then you gave me the answer to my life-long question: what is my purpose? You baby, ikaw ang katuparan ng pagkatao ko, and you are giving me enough reason to live, to continue and to strive...Your smile, your cry, everything about you - I LOVE...

To God...
Thank you for this wonderful people...Thank you for my life...Thank you for everything...

1 comments:

Dave Josef on March 24, 2015 at 8:44 PM said...

if i die, i just want to hug my special one

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